In terms of ovulating I have managed to get pregnant 2 out of the 3 times that I have ovulated in the 18 months that we said goodbye to birth control.
THAT'S RIGHT PEOPLE, I HAVE OVULATED EXACTLY 3 TIMES IN 18 MONTHS. That number makes me want to throw up. Three chances when normal people have 18. I give myself some credit for achieving 2 pregnancies out of those very very shitty odds, but COME ON!
If it wasn't clear before, it's definitely clear now, I totally have a problem ovulating and I do not have a problem getting pregnant. I also do not have implantation issues or progesterone issues since I am once again at 8 weeks already with no signs of trouble. At least we're eliminating problems I DO NOT have as we continue along this journey.
Whether or not I have a problem STAYING pregnant is still to be determined.
Obviously with Baby A something went amiss, but whether it was him or it was me we will never know.
With every fiber of my being I am praying that it was little Baby A's chromosomes that just didn't mix properly and NOT an issue I have with carrying a baby to term.
Since I was able to ovulate on my own this time just after a pregnancy, this REALLY brings it home for me that I probably ovulated those first few months after coming off the pill and that those months would have been the IDEAL time to start a family. Because after all the pill is just mimicking pregnancy for your ovaries. They were probably beautifully cyst free for awhile, popping out an egg each and every month like a normal woman. Can you imagine? I might have been able to skip this whole journey...
Ok, those are unhealthy thoughts. UNHEALTHY THOUGHTS. I cannot change the past, only the future.
Ok, those are unhealthy thoughts. UNHEALTHY THOUGHTS. I cannot change the past, only the future.
I've said it before and I'll say it again, my one regret in this whole baby making journey is that we waited 6 months after coming off the pill to start trying. The only months that I probably ovulated and we wasted them.
HUGE REGRET and advice for anyone with PCOS, START TRYING AS SOON AS YOU COME OFF BIRTH CONTROL.
Do not wait for you body to normalize, normal is bad.
I am 8 weeks today, just a few more days until we hit the point that we lost Baby A. Everyone please cross your fingers that Baby B keeps growing and we see a heartbeat on Jan. 19!
Do not wait for you body to normalize, normal is bad.
I am 8 weeks today, just a few more days until we hit the point that we lost Baby A. Everyone please cross your fingers that Baby B keeps growing and we see a heartbeat on Jan. 19!
You know you give a lot of credibility to the fertiles who tell us to relax, go on vacation, just stop trying.
ReplyDeleteI am soooo happy for you. As to the journey you could have avoided, now that you're potentially through, I am sure you've learned a lot that will make you more empathetic.
I only ovulated twice in 12 months, both times with the help of Gonal-F. I 100% understand this frustration. I'm keeping good thoughts for you right now!
ReplyDeleteI never ovulated on my own if it makes you feel any better after coming off of birth control for over 2 years. I am so happy that you are pregnant again, and I am praying for you and your precious little baby!!!
ReplyDeleteMaybe I should go back on the pill sooner rather than later . . .
ReplyDeleteMy friend told me she is trying to have a baby and just stopped the pill. I told her that if she's not pregnant in 6 months (of actively trying) then she should go to a dr, even just a regular ob/gyn, just to check. I don't like that people say to wait a year - that is a long time! I wish I had sought a doctor earlier, and had done more research before choosing my first doctor. But we can only move forward, right...?
ReplyDeleteHindsight is always 20/20 - the important thing is that you ARE pregnant now, and I am hoping and praying that you stay that way. I really hope, like you said, that the first time around was just due to chromosomal issues - that is certainly very plausible. I know you won't breathe easy until you get much later into the pregnancy (if then) but just know that I am rotting fot you!
ReplyDeleteWhoops I meant rooting for you!!
ReplyDeleteWe have been TTC for 12 months.. There was only ovulated the once (when I concieved the 1st time, but as you know I m/c that one due to a chromosone issue as well) I have only ever ovulated again on Clomid which I am taking at the moment and I have only ovulated 2 twice on that. So 3 times in 12 months!! it really sucks. Wish I knew it was going to be this hard.
ReplyDeleteI understand your frustration :( But good thing is you are pregnant again and please think positive because I know that this is your take home baby! xx
I just found your blog and wanted to say that I look forward to following along. I don't blog much about baby making because so many family members read it (drives me nuts), but my quick story is that we had #1 in early 2011 and I recently had a missed miscarriage. I know that my loss/struggles are not exactly the same as also dealing with PCOS, but I do want to say that I hope Baby #2 is a happy and healthy newborn in 7 months or so. I never knew creating a family would be so much work and heartache, and I wish you the best!
ReplyDeleteWow! Your experience gives me a lot of hope. I also had a miscarriage and the baby stopped developing at exactly 8 weeks and 4 days and I too found out at 12 weeks. I'm heading down the clomid path now but maybe just maybe my body will sort itself on its own this next cycle. Wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy. Looking forward to following your story. : )
ReplyDeleteOh I'm so happy for y'all! Keeping you in my thoughts, girly! :)
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, my mom's birthday is Jan 19th... This is a good thing right? :) It'll be a good day!!
ReplyDeleteYou're pregnant! Yay! How did I miss THIS? Hoping and praying for your sticky baby. :)
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