Friday, January 23, 2015

Baby #2 Bumpdate - 13 Weeks

Yeah...I knew I wasn't gonna do these very well this time around.

Sorry Bebe Deux!

This will be short and sweet.

How far along: 13 Weeks 1 day

Weight Gain:  I think we're still at about 5 lbs.

Maternity Clothes:  OMG YES!  I'm going all in, I don't know how I survived the vast majority of my pregnancy with Jett without maternity clothes, but this time it ain't happenin.  I'm all about the maternity clothes.  Bring on the stretchy belly panels and rouching!

Milestones:  I think this is the end of the first trimester and if it's not well fuck it, I'm pretending it's the end of the first trimester so YAY!

What's up with My Body:  Constipation.  Bane of my existence.  But the fatigue is finally starting to wane!  Can't wait to have my energy back!

Bumpdate: It's there for everyone to see.  I still can't believe this a 13 week's ridiculous.

And last time at 13 weeks.

And at 22 weeks.  How is this the same body?

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Not With a Shout But a Whisper... how nursing ends.

At just a few weeks shy of 2.5 years old, I think Jett and I have ended our nursing relationship.

With no warning, 3 nights ago, he asked for water instead of milk.

And that was it.

He hasn't mentioned milk since that night.

I feel a little cheated out of the experience of the last nursing session.  I don't remember it the way I hoped I would as I didn't know at the time that it was the last.  It was just another night, like any other, nothing special to mark the occasion.

Intellectually I'm extremely happy as this is EXACTLY how I wanted nursing to end.  No fights.  No struggles.  Just one day he'd be done.

But emotionally...I'm a little sad.  I can't put my finger on why exactly other than the fact that my baby is growing up of course.  But I am, I'm sad.  Even 2.5 years later, I'm sad it's over.

This is something we've done together, just him and me, since the moment he came out. It's extremely bittersweet to see it come to an end.

My boobs are happy.  Latching was getting painful on the pregnant boobs.  And the positioning of him across my belly was also approaching uncomfortableness.

I have no idea what caused the sudden disinterest.  Perhaps the milk became salty as I've heard can happen in pregnancy?  Perhaps he just finally decided he was done.

I guess I'll never know.

I thought this day would never come if I'm being honest.  I had started to contemplate the idea of tandem nursing because this kid would just NOT let go of the milk and I didn't want to force it.

But he did it and with that final act of independence by my first born, my body officially belongs to Baby #2.

So I'll take the 6 month boob break and look forward to beginning anew come August.

It's been fun Baby Jett, I'm glad I have these pictures to remember our time together.

Thursday, January 15, 2015

Baby #2 Bumpdate - 12 Weeks

I'm undecided how I'm going to go about these bumpdates for Round 2.  I think I would enjoy going back and reading them like I do with Jett's I really have the time to not only do the bumpdates but the pictures as well???

We shall see...let's give it a whirl.

How far along? 12 Weeks
Weight gain/loss: +5 lbs. I think I started this time at 118 which is about 5 lbs. less than last time so I'm up to my pre-pregnancy weight before Baby #1.
Maternity clothes? Ugh, I think I need to start jumping into maternity clothes already.  Pants are too tight, loose shirts make me look fat (which is all I wear, apparently I've COMPLETELY changed my style over the last 2 years).  I've dug out the old maternity clothes but since I wore them AT THE END of my last pregnancy they're stretched out in the bump area and really don't fit quite yet.  I'm in a clothing slump!  I hate all my clothes and everything is uncomfortable!

Gender? Both Dom and I were feeling pretty strong girl vibes this time around just because of the whole MS thing that I didn't have before...which I discuss below.  I kind of picture our life with Jett and a baby sister lately too.  AND I had one pregnancy dream where I gave birth to a baby girl.  So...this week is girl.  We are not finding out again!

Milestones: Made it past 8 weeks and now 12 weeks with a heartbeat!  My two milestones.
What's up with my body?  Two pregnancies could not be more different.

With Jett's pregnancy I felt pretty damn good for the vast majority of my pregnancy.  I did not suffer from any morning sickness other than a random bout of nausea here and there.  This time around I spent weeks 7-10 feeling like I was about to throw up at any moment ALL DAY every day.  The only time I felt ok was when I was eating and for about an hour after eating.  The problem was forcing myself to eat as who wants to eat when they're feeling nauseous?! 

BUT amazingly it went away just as quickly as it appeared several weeks shy of the first trimester, so I will once again count myself lucky that I
a) was not throwing up and that
b) my MS was short-lived.

Though I'm not gonna lie, the nausea gave me a HUGE sense of comfort because if I was nauseous I was pregnant!  No nausea = me questioning whether I'm still pregnant basically every day.

And constipation and hemorrhoids have already reared their ugly heads!  This early???  Come on body, that's WAY too early to start dealing with this stuff!!!  Last time I was well into my 2nd trimester before having to start researching constipation remedies!  Luckily I remember all the tricks from last time, but DAMNIT!


The other ridiculously different thing this time around is that HOLY MOTHER OF GOD WHAT THE HELL IS THIS???

 I am trying to hold my sweater back not stick my bump out I swear.

I'm already looking so so pregnant and I'm not even out of the first trimester.

My uterus has just barely begun to pop out from behind my pubic bone, so I ask you, what the hell is this?  Bloat?  Water retention?  My body just "remembering" how to be pregnant???

Last time around I was pushing 20 weeks before I looked like this.  I think it was somewhere around 19 weeks before my husband was like " look pregnant!"  This time around he's already told me he thinks I'm going to be big because I already look pregnant.


Here's 19 weeks last time to compare:

And because I just love comparison photos, here's 12 weeks with #1.

Anyone else finding they're much bigger with #2???

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

The Early Christmas Present...Again.

There are so many similarities between 2011 and 2014.

We spent most of the year trying to have a baby...again.

We had one miscarriage...again.

One of our grandparents died...again.  Obviously not the same one.

We had a failed round of Clomid...again.


We had a successful 2nd round of Clomid...again!

We got pregnant in November...again.

We announced the pregnancy at Christmas...again.

And last but not least, I'm having an August baby...again.  Ok technically my due date is July 30, but come on...I'm clearly destined to have all my babies birthdays clustered around my own.

So, here we go again!  On to Baby #2...FINALLY.