Friday, May 15, 2015

Baby #2 Bumpdate - Weeks 28 & 29

Hello Third Trimester!

Without a doubt I am not enjoying pregnancy the 2nd time around as much as I did the first.  I feel uncomfortable in ALL of my clothes and just generally feel big and unwieldy, something I did not experience last time until the very very end.

Basically I feel...yuck...all the time.

But here goes.

How far along: 29w1d

Weight Gain:  This might be why I feel so much bigger and unwieldy this time, I am somehow only about a pound shy of where I was WHEN I GAVE BIRTH last time AND I started this pregnancy out 5 lbs lighter than last time.  That means I have gained 24 lbs...and I have a long ass time left of this pregnancy.  My pants (yes maternity pants!) are so uncomfortable these days all I want to wear are my skirts and maxi dresses but the weather is not cooperating.  It was 70 degrees throughout the winter but come spring suddenly we're barely in the 60s and it's just a little too cold for bare legs!

What's Up With my Body:  Blood pressure seems ok for the time being.  It is in the 117-124/74-83 range...which is all fine, all good.  If it stays here, GREAT!  But I've got my eye on it.

Headaches have come a knockin and are making me cranky and miserable.  Of course headaches are a sign of high blood pressure so every time I have one I FREAK OUT but...they don't seem to be related in this case.

Constipation and hemorrhoids while not gone are UNDER CONTROL for the moment and I know that's the best I can hope for!

And heartburn, I have heartburn every night when I wake up at midnight to pee.  Gross.

Emotions: Emotionally I'm actually feeling really good.  We make the move up to Oregon in 2 weeks and I'm feeling very ready for the whole thing rather than overwhelmed by things that need to be done.  We took a trip up there in March and I packed up all the newborn things we might need for the first few weeks AND all my nursing clothes and took it all up there already, so I don't feel like there's much to do around here other than pack up our clothes and head off.  Dom will actually be spending a bit longer here in Berkeley before making the move up with us so it doesn't feel like I need to get my house ready to be empty for 3 months, which is usually stressful in and of itself.  I THINK WE'RE READY!!!  Kind of crazy that when we come back we will be a family of 4!!!

Gender: Back to girl.  I just feel so different this time...I will be surprised if this is another boy.


Thursday, May 14, 2015

Are You Done?

Everyone around me IRL seems to be done having babies.  Some have 1, some have 2, some have 3.  Some are done by choice and some are done by circumstances out of their control.  But done, nevertheless.

Vasectomy is a common theme in conversations lately.  Friends are taking proactive measures to ensure that they are in fact done.

How is this the stage of life I'm in?  It makes me feel very old.

I feel like I just started having babies, how can everyone be done???

Since making babies hasn't been the easiest thing in the world, "are you done?" has become such a loaded question.  Without a doubt we were not done with one.  Even if pregnancy was unachievable a 2nd time then adoption would have been pursued.

But now?  With #2 a few months away?  Are we done?

In my heart of hearts I will tell you no.  I'm not done.  When we got married we were going to have 3 kids.  THREE, not 2, not 1 but 3. 

We will TRY for a third on our own without a doubt.

But how hard will we pursue a 3rd?  Even though #2 isn't here yet, we've been talking about #3. Will we pursue treatments if we cannot get pregnant and STAY pregnant on our own?

I'm not sure that we will.

If it doesn't work and I stop ovulating...again, then we might be done. 

Or the I have to have another miscarriage to have another baby?  It makes me sad that I have to lose on to get one but that's been the pattern so far.  Dare I risk losing another?

As Dom approaches 45 I think he'd like to be done with the "having babies" stage of life and move on to the raising our family stage.  I kind of get it.  I will turn 34 just after this baby arrives and if I pretend that the exact same timeline of events will unfold for #3 then I wouldn't be having #3 until I was almost 37.  Do I still want to be in the "building our family" stage of life 8 years after we started?

I hate to think this is the last time I'm doing all this things and not know it, like is this the last time I'll be pregnant?  Is this the last time I'll feel baby kicks from the inside?  Is this the last chance to have my homebirth? Will this be my last newborn?

I'd like to relish these things more if this is the last time I'll be experiencing them but...there's no way to know.

I know I've got at least another year, probably more, before any decision needs to be made on this subject, but it nevertheless plagues me.

What about everyone else?  I know most of you are/will pursue the 2nd by any means necessary but will you keep going?

Monday, May 4, 2015

Baby #2 Bumpdate - Weeks 26 & 27

Sorry blog, I've been neglecting you.

There are things I'd like to write about.  There are things I HAVE written about, I just haven't hit publish yet.  I promise to blog more, there are things I need opinions on!

Anyway, how is it May already?

My baby is due in JULY, that is only 2 months from now!!!

Yes it's the beginning of May and the EDD is July 30, so really that's almost 3 months, but come on!  So close!

Here we go:

How far along: 27w4d

Weight Gain: 19 lbs.  Some days this feels like a lot because I only gained 23 lbs the first time with Jett and was only up 16 lbs at this point but if you think about it I was only pregnant for 10 more weeks last time and if you gain .5 lb a week then that would put me at only 24 lbs at 38 weeks.  So...right in line with last time I guess...maybe a smidge more.

What's Up with My Body: Nothing good, that's what's up with my body!  First off, I have BLEEDING hemorrhoids and OMG I want to die every morning in the bathroom, pregnancy is so unglamourous! 

Second...blood pressure is starting to rise.  FUCK!  It is not technically high yet, but it is no longer in the "normal" range and is in the "pre-hypertension" range...and I've got 12 more weeks to go.  The scariest part is the rapid rise.  It made quite a leap from my last appt just 3 weeks ago.  I'm holding out hope that it was just a one-time thing and will either stay exactly where it is for the rest of my pregnancy or will go back down into normal range.  This is actually the point in pregnancy when blood pressure will rise slightly...but with my history of course I'm worried!

My diastasis is also really bothering me.  It feels so much looser and stretchier this time around that I'm worried it won't go back as easily!  I'm also moving in ways that I didn't the first time around that really seem to put stress on the belly, like lifting a toddler in and out of a crib!  I bought a support belt that I'm going to start wearing whenever I'm more active, to see if I can't keep these tummy muscles from stretching out too much!

Gender: I've decided it's a boy now, haha!  I think it's because of the name, we're still struggling with a boy name just like with Jett and of course Jett was the only boy name we had and liked and used it, so I feel like the same thing is happening again.

Bumpdate:  Something about this bump feels different this time.  It doesn't feel as cute...and it feels bigger.  It also definitely feels WIDER, like my bump is expanding out to the side (which you can't tell from these pictures), which is why it doesn't feel as cute.  Perhaps this is actually an indicator that it's a GIRL because it is so not a basketball bump.

Thursday, April 16, 2015

Baby #2 Bumpdate - Weeks 24 & 25

I have very little to add for the last 2 weeks, pregnancy is so boring this time.  But in other news, JETT HAS STARTED NAPPING AGAIN!  Little shit, I don't know what was up with the month long hiatus but...naps are back.  I called time of death too soon.

Back to the bump...

How far along: 25 weeks

Weight Gain: Up 2 lbs, I think we're up 17 total.

What's Up with my Body:  Not much.  Braxton Hicks here and there.  An ache in my right side for 2 days and heartburn for a day.  Nothing long lasting and nothing too troublesome.  Basically feeling really good.

Milestones:  We're at Viability!!!  Btw, has this viability week changed in the last 3 years?  Like are they saving babies before 24 weeks now?  Because I just read on a forum about a lady giving birth at 23w1d and he's surviving.  I thought if babies were born before 24 weeks they didn't try to save them because the lifelong consequences and hardships were too great?! 


Wednesday, April 8, 2015

The End of an Era

The end of's here.

Jett started out a really really crappy sleeper.  Both night time and nap time.  But right around a year Jett became an amazing sleeper.

He's napped wonderfully in his crib for almost 2 years.  And night time sleep is as of yet uninterrupted.

I suppose I should be grateful for that.

But after a month long struggle to not only get him to nap, but to keep him in his crib and even worse, in his room, during nap time, I'm calling time of death on naps for Baby Jett.

The beginning of March was the last time that Jett took a nap in his crib.

He now climbs out of the crib 5 minutes after I leave the room (after INSISTING he will stay in the bed for nap) and plays Legos for half an hour before exiting the bedroom and wandering around the house until he finds me.

I've tried everything I can think of to get him to stay in the bed or at least stay in his room, but all to no avail.

Part of me is glad he's doing this now several months before the new baby arrives so that we're not in the midst of a napping/sleeping transition with Jett AND trying to figure out how to deal with a newborn again at the same time.

But part of me is sad, sad, sad.  I've come to love nap time.  I do laundry or pick up the kitchen or read, or nap.  It's the only ME time all day and I cherish it dearly.  I'll be sad to see it go.

Thank god I'm out of the first trimester and not so tired these days.

He now passes out at a newborn.  It's not the end of the world, even though some days it feels like it.

We now need to transition him into a toddler bed since the crib has absolutely no purpose if he can and does climb out.  But I'm dragging my feet.

I bought him a new crib, which we just put together 3 nights ago but haven't put the toddler rail on it because I haven't painted that part yet.  I decided to get him a new bed rather than switch his bed to a toddler bed because it is HUGE with it's changing table and drawers (which he calls his ladder) and really doesn't fit in his room the way I want it to.  So new baby will inherit the big crib.

Big girly crib with "ladder".

New "big boy" crib, soon to be toddler bed.

Sigh.  Baby boy is growing up.  I'm not sad about the growing up part but I am sad about the changes.  I started out this parenting gig very ANTI schedule but ended up with a kid that does SO WELL with a schedule that I've come to love and rely on the schedule to get me through the day.

We're working very hard on "quiet time" now. The last few days he's only made it 20 minutes before exiting his bedroom.  I'm going to attempt to enforce an hour in the room playing quietly...we'll see how it goes.

And just to throw a wrench in my plans.  This was Baby Jett 2 days ago just after we put together the new crib.

Little update now, 3 days of the new crib and he hasn't climbed out ONCE, I guess getting rid of the "ladder" has done the trick for now.  Baby Jett is staying in a crib for just a little bit longer!

Thursday, April 2, 2015

Baby #2 Bumpdate - Weeks 22 & 23

As always it's exciting to be ONE WEEK AWAY FROM VIABILITY!

How far along: 23 Weeks

Weight Gain: 14 lbs. After gaining several pounds in the previous weeks it looks like I didn't gain a damn thing the last 2 weeks and I am now officially gaining LESS than I did with Jett at this point.

What's Up with My Body: Nothing.  I took a look at my Jett pregnancy bumpdate from this point and I had symptoms all over the place.  Heartburn, constipation, Braxton Hicks had started, milk leaking, etc etc.  But this time...nothing.  I mean I have BH all the damn time, but...I have them all the damn time so they're hardly new this week.  And amazingly CONSTIPATION WENT AWAY.  I have no idea why, it just suddenly...wasn't a problem anymore.  So I'm feeling pretty good!  Most days I forget I'm pregnant until I have to bend down and pick something up or pick up my toddler and the 17 other things I'm trying to carry at the same time or when I accidentally bump the car door into my stomach.  Or when the wiggle monster (the one on the inside) starts getting really active.

And I forgot to mention this on my last bumpdate from 2 weeks ago, but the pregosaurus is back!  I think it's started a bit earlier this time as it was a few more weeks before I saw it happening last time.  But yes, diastasis's back.  

Gender:  I am 100% set on girl.  I can't for the life of me picture this kid as a boy!!!  Again looking at this point in Jett's pregnancy I was convinced he was in fact a boy, kept calling him a he, etc etc, but we kept talking girl names.  This time I must admit we haven't talked names AT ALL other than a very brief conversation in which we decided on a boy middle name.  We're screwed if I'm wrong and it's a boy!


From last time.  Bump looks about the same these days!

Friday, March 20, 2015

Baby #2 Bumpdate - Weeks 20 & 21

It's that time again...

How far along: 21w1d...I must admit, I almost just wrote 20w there, I'm not sure where the 20th week went.  One moment it was the next milestone (halfway!) and the next it was more than a week ago.  Time is flying lately.

Weight gain: I think I gained 4 lbs in the last 2 weeks.  For a hideous moment while I was in Oregon I thought I had gained 10!  But it turns out that my parents scale is just WAY different than mine.  Mine is clearly better as I weigh less on it ;-)  But it definitely looks like I've breached 130 and skipped right on over that to 132 which puts me up 14 lbs. total.

What's up with my body:  Braxton Hicks have started up with a vengeance.  I know some women do not feel their BH at all, but I am unfortunately not one of those women.  I get them A LOT and I hate them...they are very uncomfortable.  But they do remind me to sit down and drink some water!  Other than that I'm feeling good and there's not much going on with my body. I took a look at my 20 and 21 week bumpdates from Jett's pregnancy and it looks like I had all sorts of new symptoms crop up around this time like heartburn and sciatic nerve pain in my hip and I was just generally starting to feel a bit uncomfortable.  I feel totally fine this time around.  I would hardly realize I'm pregnant except for the grunting whenever I try to get up from our deep deep couch or out of bed or off the floor!

Gender: I'm still stuck on girl and I haven't wavered this time like I did with Jett.  We're still trying to come up with boy names but I've got my girl name and I'm having such trouble finding a boy name that hoping I'm correct and that our boy name doesn't matter.

Bumpdate: I think the bump growth has slowed down and looks similar to how it did with Jett.  Thank god because it was too big too fast!