If you have not yet received your BFP I strongly recommend you don't read this post. I've been there and I know how much it hurts to feel like you are the only one still struggling and I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings with this post. But the reality is that I'm pregnant and I have to start living life as though I will STAY pregnant even though most of the time this is a concept I'm still struggling with. This post is an effort to start moving in that direction.
This post is a celebration of pregnancy.
It is a celebration of all the BFP's that the IF community has been blessed with over the last few months.
I've struggled a lot with accepting pregnancy as a reality. During my first pregnancy I went out of my way to seek out other newly pregnant bloggers, this backfired as I lost my baby and they went on to have their babies...or are HAVING them now, this is my EDD month! I unfollowed them all and went back to IFers.
This time I've been EXTREMELY hesitant to seek out other pregnant bloggers. Luckily the IF community was hit with a string of BFPs and I was already following a bunch of you when you received your news. So, voila! Pregnant buddies without me having to do a thing.
But lately, since this pregnancy is still progressing smoothly, I've been going out of my way to find MORE pregnant bloggers but this time I've stuck to pregnant IF bloggers. I'm hoping this is a step in the right direction to help me better accept pregnancy and be more willing to wrap my brain around the idea of a happy outcome to pregnancy.
So today I removed my TTC Journey on the right hand side (though it's still a page at the top) and I added a blogroll of exclusively pregnant IFers.
Guess how many of you I found to add to this blogroll?
Holy shit! 28 pregnant IFers!
Most of you I have been following since long before your BFP.
Some of you I started following after I received my own BFP.
And some of you I just found through PAIL.
Some of you are a bit farther along than me.
Some of you are within a week of me.
And some of you are brand new and JUST received your BFP.
But I believe everyone is due between June and October. We will all have babies within a few months of each other.
I don't care how pregnant you are, if you've received a BFP lately I added you.
And I'm absolutely amazed at how many of us there are.
I thought there would be 10...maybe 15. I didn't realize the number was much much closer to 30.
I know that numbers are not always on our side and statistics would dictate that not all of us should get to keep our babies, especially in this community that always seems to have a higher number of tragedies. So, in an effort to minimize emotional pain if this were to happen to any of us I promise to follow you all carefully and make sure that if any of you, god forbid, lose your babies I will remove you immediately from the blogroll so that you never have to see your name over there and cry. I imagine it would be like getting a bump.com email about the next week in your pregnancy after you've lost your baby. Been there, done that and I don't want to invoke those feelings I had for anyone who is dealing with a loss.
That being said I'm hoping to not have to remove ANY of you and even to ADD more IFers and that we as a group beat the odds!
Now, did I miss anyone?
UPDATE: We're up to 34!!!
UPDATE: We're up to 34!!!