Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Smiley Faces

Written May 27. 2011 during my first Clomid cycle. If you missed the beginning of this journey, you can catch up here, here and here.

For the first time EVER I have a positive OPK test!

I've been peeing on sticks for a year now and I've never seen a smiley face on an ovulation test.


I even took pictures.

It's baby making time!

I think this is how you're supposed to feel when you first start "trying", not a year after that fateful moment. I put off drugs to help me for so long...and yet rather than finding that a decision I regret I KNOW it was best to wait until we were settled here. I've had 3 ultrasounds since we started Clomid 2 weeks ago, it would have been IMPOSSIBLE to do that either in Sydney or in Oregon.

So, here's to finally being like everyone else, 20% chance of a pregnancy this cycle (and a small chance for twins or triplets, eek!) and the knowledge that I DO ovulate with just a little help from a little pill.

I've been very honest about the fact that I was against Clomid. I searched and searched for alternative options, all to no avail. And now I'm forced to sit here and think about exactly what I was so against.

First off, Clomid should not be prescribed so heavily. I've said this a few times, but I really don't like Dr.'s who prescribe things willy nilly and this is one of those drugs that seems to be prescribed for every woman that walks into a Dr.'s office and says "I'm not pregnant yet". It is not an appropriate medication for EVERYONE.

Second, I didn't want to accept that I couldn't ovulate on my own. I was convinced (and still maybe convinced) that I could ovulate on my own if we just gave it enough time.

I gave it a year and a half off the pill and no ovulation. I'm not saying I'll never ovulate, I believe it's still possible for me to get my cycles back, but I was feeling like I was running out of time. I may only be 29...almost 30, still young by today's standards but my husband turns 39 this year, I want him to have babies before he's 40.

Written today.

To anyone out there having trouble getting pregnant, do your research and make sure you find the right doctor FOR YOU. If Clomid is an appropriate round of treatment for you then please please please make sure you have a Dr. that monitors you throughout your cycle. I went in for almost weekly ultrasounds after Day 12 of my cycle to check my ovaries and if it wasn't for those ultrasounds I wouldn't be pregnant. Know what the drug does and what it doesn't do!


  1. I am so glad that it worked for you! And I am with you - I am very against drugs for drugs sake. I think that we have become a society that wants it and wants it now, no matter the cost and we have lost respect for the process of things. However, I am also with you in that sometimes, it becomes necessary to put your trust in a magic pill.

    Yeay for another clomid success story. I will always have to wonder if it was clomid that jump started my cycle (I got pregnant after 3 cycles but didn't take clomid when I got pregnant) or if I was one of those that didn't actually need it) - but I am thrilled to hear it helped you!!

  2. I really find reading your posts so informative. And I'll say it again, thanks for sharing.

    I know I told you my story before. We know we *can* get pregnant. I'm tired of peeing on sticks and scheduling baby-making time. I'm going to be 37 in a couple of months. I'm not getting younger.

    I love my doctor. Not quick to prescribe drugs. Give another 6 months she says. Nothing alarms me, she says. So, that helps put my worries at ease. If, after another 6 months, we're still trying, I'll go see her again. Then we'll see what she says.